a failure

”Men” , said a woman I have very great respect for, and although she said ”men” so remains my respect for her. It was no wonder that it was a ”Men- but do you have left it? Usually you like to toss photos that have to do with a failure.”

We talked about that I still have photos from the time I was exposed to the tenfold crime, photos of the accused, Thus the later sentenced to prison.

”Men! ” I exclaimed, equal spontaneously. ” I do not see it as a failure. I see it as an experience in my life. Now I'm standing right here.”

”Nähä?!” said she was extremely interested. So make curious people. They are ready for a new perspective.

Because my answer ” I do not see it as a failure! ” came as fast as a bolt from the marrow, I wondered at the next moment for myself if there was denial and self-preservation that made me say it. Or if it's true that I do not see it as a failure that I was trapped and worn down and manipulated and threatened that I finally lost the value of my great condominium in downtown Stockholm and then my whole economic basis. It sounds pretty embarrassing actually. I do not want to acknowledge what happened as a failure because it harms my dignity? I lack the courage to call things by their right names?

No, but the fact is ; I do not see it as a failure. What do I have in this case failed?

It is interesting to talk to people about what has happened, their reactions tell a lot about spontaneous conceptions about the phenomenon that these, as I have been through.

If I had been exposed to burglary had probably not thought that it was a ”failure” from my side. Or if I had been the victim of a violent crime. What makes it possible to associate ”failure ” in particular crime I was exposed to all that I expected to have an active role in the crime. My active role was that I trusted the person who turned out to perform a long drawn-out criminal actions against me. That's weird? Then consists failure of that I was not able to see through what was going on.

Nej, I regard it as a failure. It affects my every day, and it hurts me, but it's still not a failure. I am not ashamed even.

One reason that I am freed from the victim's shame is that I have spoken about it. And the terapirum, long, and pretty soon with anyone I have met along the way. The fact that I talk about it with anyone, if the spirit moves, so has my little world opened up for a lot of similar stories, often worse than my. A very strong reason that I am not ashamed of is that I was vindicated in court.

But all that is really subordinate. The reason I do not feel like a failure is greater.

I live the. Life itself can not be a failure, eller? I have been born into this life. We never know how our paths will go. At times everything is perfect and you think you are safest in the world and that nothing can shake one's luck. At times, you are vulnerable, things happen that should not in any way one has control over. people die, people get sick, to lose people you love. We become very ill! Life can not be checked. We exert ourselves how much anything with it, but in the end we are still facing things that we have not anticipated. If that were not, were also not life. It is life itself. It contains all this.

The saddest thing of all, and it can be called a creation failure, is that there are evil people. Just chew on. Så är det. There are evil people.

It did not know. They wanted to believe that all are kind at heart! Or that you can heal everyone with good therapy. So it is not. There can not be a personal failure of any single person that they have not recognized the disguised evil.

But if time had rolled back and some supernatural force had opened another door for me, a black unknown, I do not know if I had dared to go that route. How do you know that the road had been better? Now I know that I survived the failed path I went. And I'm proud of. The pride I feel over the inner and outer struggles I have brought sits as a pillar of light in me. I see it almost every day in my own eyes. Perhaps no one else sees it. But I see it.

None of us can control the course of life. We want to believe it, Though we will be something as simple as a cold… We would also like to think that we can see through the lies. According to various scientific experiments, we are very bad at that particular, which is probably tour, because we had not been able to live together if we could see through all the lies. We had, moreover, never been able to develop anything at all if we did not have a basic trust in each other, beyond what can be called the sense.

Nej, Life is hard. It goes in periods. But when you now have become, then where you'd show up every day, so to speak. Look a new day! Ok, I'm here, tro det eller ej! Although life Segar around in an endless black viscous stream of suspense, risks and resisted- sometimes overbearing long periods. Men! You do not want to miss life! It can be something fun, något bra, something quiet, something nice, something helhärligt too soon, after which the viscous disgusting horrible.

It might be a failure, faktiskt, not to have taken that as this is the life. This is life, folks! Tell that to the growing so they do not run out of breath!

The problem is of course that it judges itself by the idea that life is a bed of roses. There is the great danger. But one should not confuse himself with what happens in one's life! There is an important distinction. For what is taking place and that the basis can be considered, can always be judged by others and all have different reasons to judge here or there. These reasons can not control. They are completely subjective and arbitrary. If you start to glance at such things, ja, then it is clear that we are beginning to see their difficult life experiences that ” failures ” and maybe the whole as a ”failure”. It should simply make clear that it should not get involved with. Kort och gott; there will be no happier!

Faced with the horror fantastic vagaries frightening and delightful life one must make himself willing. Willing to follow, willing to love, willing to learn, willing to fail, willing to scrape together the remnants of the shattered aspirations and dreams and willing to continue. Willing to share his life. There are an endless number of risks and opportunities in every moment. It is impossible to check them all. Så är det bara. Wear it with pride.

One must recall that we were staying in an arrogant social culture that often lack both love and humility, therefore wisdom. Wisdom makes it bearable to live. Wisdom even has the power to crafting taxes where they think everything is empty.

and sometimes fall towers of wind. This creates wind music. It sounds like small bright voices singing. Det är sant.