Now comes the!
spring!
Not until today I have taken down the Advent stars, but now it was time. They are so beautiful with its glimmering especially when the sky deepens to blue before it turns black, But now draws near New Times, new lights and shades.
Though spring is a bit annoying sometimes! Not to mention the summer. Could not it have become bright, can not get the buds swell, you can not have the joy of scents and songs without anpassningsstigmatiseras? The worst is when the smell of barbecues looking out between the houses. It's grilling to do! What is ” grill ”? Jo, it is a loving, excited, yummy community that people are doing, very smiling and something I have been hooked on since ancient times. And all the shops are trumpeting that now is the time to GRILL and they get the chance to sell food, food magazines and gadgets forever tiresome eternity. Grilling is almost like a long drawn-out Valentine's Day, one begins to suspect that there is a commercial fabrications.
I've been out of the dating sites for a while. So many people there are who yearn for a special, a particular, a Someone! Huge numbers and everywhere and at all ages! It is both beautiful and sad. It's nice that people are not silent about his desire. They actually go out there and say HELLO HERE I AM WHERE ARE YOU IF YOU ARE? While it is of course sad, In any case, if you see it as the only life that is worth anything is one of togetherness ( which of course is a myth ) because then it would mean that all these people are unhappy. There are of course not, just sometimes, but remember so many who are unhappy with the opposite; not be free. Probably more if you include international. Certainly more! In any case, you can think of them, all the others on the dating pages, when you can not escape barbecue oils and sit alone in your pansies another glorious evening. It is not the only one in the world who think it's shit time, ibland, when everyone else seems to have someone to belong to. This with spring, and summer, especially the spring, the old connotation of the expected love of themselves. And yes it is true! It will be much happier when you are in love. It's fun to share projects and plans with someone you are over fond of than to be myself with plans and projects. And barbecue oil.
For many years after my divorce, I was extremely skeptical twosomeness. And sought not, definitely wanted inte have the. I saw too many who pushed each other down and stingy and snarky. For many who have to ask the other for permission for everything and who shrank each other. Nä hu. Nothing could give me so acute claustrophobia like the idea of being in twosomes again. I had found my ultimate way of life and did not leave it. Much more fun and easier to consider ” mannen ” that someone should bring joy, not all the rest. Thus easier to control everything yourself and be in love with several pieces and then run away. But hampade it is not better than that a man came into my path without much trouble managed to open my skeptical heart. It was so much fun. På riktigt. So much fun it was! And I understood the point of companionship again.
Jaha, So what I want to say? Det vet jag inte, I'm chatting. And I began to see that spring is on the way and then I was a little subdued by remembering that it can sometimes be difficult because you want to be in love with someone just in the spring and summer, not least that it be grilled so damned. You could lean her cheek against a loving shoulder while melted Karren, ack But for me, spring and summer are actually a bit troublesome for other reasons even more, and it is that I want to sit inside and write! But as the sun shines and wants to pull out of all the beautiful. And other people who quit their work at a certain time and then be regarded as vacant until the next day, they are out there and tjoar and tjimmar! And I also want to be there but at the same time, I want nothing more than to crawl into, indoor and drink tea and write and know that nothing pulls me out, but here I can cuddle my stay! But who cares about that? How can I write a blog about this? It can hardly interest anyone. I'll just finish.
Beyond these few ABER is it's absolutely wonderful that spring is on the way. The sun shines through the thin curtains and the earth begins to smell and sprout. The wonderful thing about it is that regardless of everything so funny feeling in the whole body of happiness! Although it only flows through one's being briefly as a vigorous salmon on their way to play, it happens. Every year. In most of us until we are super old from the time we were little children who lived only a few years on earth and look at everything with wide eyes. A small swirl through the body, because the light we have seen returning throughout our lives once again meets our eyes. What gift!
And watching snowdrops and winter aconite up. And I now share with you a spring song, composed and performed by me and the man who managed to get me to believe that togetherness is quite cozy yet a few years ago. I half-lies in a chair and småsjunger, it was just a sample we recorded, and we'd play me back then when I would sing a little bit more thoroughly, but there were other fun things in the way and it was forgotten. But this song, It has like spring itself, tycker jag !
