Now it was so long ago I knåpade together a blog that I forgot how to do, but I have at least been able to establish – to my surprise! – it fairly well attended, though I never write!
The last six months I puffed out. It was those tinderbloggarna – on my few visits to the dating world as completely drained me. It got so incredibly tiresome consequences, det där, and it was such a hassle to have to see naked uninvited men pose in combination with the never-ending never-ending ordströmmar in the attached email. I just felt ” I can not take it!” When I thought of myself contribute their own ordströmmar, in a place like this. But now I have reloaded!
Det närmar sig, good people, the day I can say ” soon ” about my next book publishing. I have written in the autumn clear, from beginning to end, in what I sometimes call it tenfold CRIME. In my tome of nearly a thousand pages is to say all the shots. Now just to edit, polish and refine. It has been very hard at times to have to go back and drill perpetrator rampage. At times it has been exciting, so that I barely been able to sleep with a desire to continue the next day, because now it has been me who took command and seen through the psychopath sneaky behavior. But there have also been days when I have hardly been able to breathe, literally, and had to break off one of the tranquilizers I got , When I eventually sought help. And when it has gone far, when I feel compelled to resort to such means. I really felt trapped in the material, during periods, as if I was caught again. TO WHAT USE?
Often, When I suffered from the draining recall woes, I have asked myself the. Why do I do this? Yes, but I know. But is it worth it? Will it be worth it? Det vet jag inte.
I write the book about the psychopath acts against me for others to obtain redress. Most are so dismantled, devastated, confused, weary deep that they can not account for what happened. So who should understand them? Perhaps their nearest overlook their misfortune, but they can understand them? Can you understand himself while methodically mangle down to crushed, of a psychopathic human?
Because I wrote 23 diaries while it lasted – My attempts to orient myself and in my attempt to make me feel safe and comforted me in the end – I have been able to recapitulate the sequence of events. This together with some documents and e-mail made it possible to prosecute and convict him. He got three years in prison. After I talked to the District Court heard one of the lay off of me and said that hen finally, after many cases of a similar kind, understood how these things go to. Usually not their prey talk, explain, account sufficiently coherent and informed in order to be able to trap the perpetrator, who always has an answer for everything and is very wordy and manipulative, even before Ms. Justitia course.
Alltså! I write the book to give all the others who have experienced similar ( and there are MANY ) upprättelse. And for all the ( majority) who think they are safe. And for all who encounter victims of these perpetrators professional. Sometimes when I have not been able, when I felt no I do not want this, I thought of one or two of the stories I have been told – after being told little – of both women and men who get a lot worse than I. And that could not sign, and not been able to explain, and that in one case simply ended at home, destruction of all that he. For them I write this book. GOD WHAT IT HAS BEEN HEAVILY! But I feel it is my duty.
Now I think in any case that it brightens soon. Starting about now, I have two sounding boards, my publisher and my editor and it allows me off the ground. Their involvement helps me to motivate me, I do not have to carry everything yourself! HURRA! We will be crafting the! Jag längtar.
And today is the first Advent. I have julstädat! Nå, not as a mother or grandmother, standing on stools and cleaned the cabinets of pages and so, but. And hung up Advent stars and picked up the Advent candle and lit the first candle. And hope that it will be a new appointment to the earth soon, where people rise above the low, grim, short, violent, cynical and are generally the finest that the human soul and the human intelligence can be. So it will light to this divine creation that our earth is. I do not believe in God in the form of any one religion ( if pantheism) but I really think there is something indescribably divine over , i, by the existence. How would this earth else could be so amazing and endlessly ingenious, and so beautifully balanced – that it is no longer then men began to ravage without soul and without long-term smart thinking. It is terrible that the worst is in man. All the very very worst that you do not want to touch with his mind, all that is in people. And all the beautiful! Really indescribably beautiful! I light the first light and the hope that love – på riktigt – love all the good levels – will soon rule over the poor soil.
Thanks to all of you who follow my blog. Spread the warmth. It is wise. Especially in the dark.
